Posts tagged ‘anxiety’

Turning around a failure

I have exams this week and I have been beyond stressed lately, to the point where I’ve been driving myself crazy.  On top of everything, I haven’t been able to practice for a while because my pole broke and I’m waiting to receive a part from the company.  To relieve some stress, I decided to work a practice into my schedule yesterday at the studio.  My main goal for the day was to film a routine I had put together but had not been able to rehearse at home.  I wanted to be able to use the video as a submission for an upcoming showcase, and although I knew it probably wouldn’t be perfect, at least it would be a start.  At best, I hoped to run through the routine a couple times and film it just so I could go back and see what needed to be fixed; I would worry about perfecting it later.  In reality, things didn’t go so well.  (more…)

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December 8, 2011 at 5:07 pm Leave a comment

My pole is my therapist

This summer has been very difficult for me in many ways. There’s a lot going on in my family right now, and every time I’ve gone home to visit I’ve received bad news. This weekend was especially traumatic, and the worst part is that I can’t talk about it with even my dearest friends because that would be violating my family’s privacy. However, it’s something I’m going to have to deal with for the next several months, and I know it’s going to weigh heavily on my heart.

I’m not going to pretend that when I pole dance all of my worries flutter away like carefree little butterflies.  But I can say that being able to go to class every week still gives me something to look forward to.  Nailing a move still gives me a rush of positivity.  Creating a routine still gives my brain something to do when I need to stop thinking about all of the things that are haunting me. (more…)

July 25, 2011 at 6:57 pm 2 comments


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